I was expecting more at my appointment with the dietitian yesterday. There are some major changes underway: more protein in my diet, fewer carbs, fewer empty calories and no caffeine. But a lot of the info we discussed was stuff I already know. That’s been part of my struggle with losing weight…I know what it is that I need to do, but I simply cannot seem to do it.
Giving up caffeine is not as difficult as it might seem. I’ve been trying to get rid of soda for a while now, and I don’t drink a lot of coffee as it is. Unfortunately, I am very sensitive to caffeine withdrawal. Fortunately, I’ve already had a migraine since yesterday, so it seemed like the perfect day to stop consuming caffeine for good.
This morning, I found myself having some second thoughts and freaking out a bit. One of the other things I will have to give up is beer. Now while I enjoy beer, I simply don’t drink it all that much. So giving it up really isn’t that big of a deal. But it made me start thinking about things that are going to have to change…and a lot of things ARE going to have to change. I started getting panicky and even teared up for a minute. Should I consider the gastric sleeve instead? Maybe the changes there won’t seem so draconian. Or maybe I should try avoiding surgery, and give weight load a real good push without the knife.
I calmed myself down and put it out of my head for a little bit. After I got to work, I did some quick research on the three common methods of surgery. I had already done research, but couldn’t remember all the specific details. What I learned this morning is that all three procedures require the same kinds of dietary changes. I also learned that they all will allow me to enjoy a lot of delicious food after surgery, along with wine.
And let’s be real here: I have done a lot of damage to my body with awful food…physically, mentally, financially. I am at a point where I believe a drastic change is necessary in order to regain control of my health…my life. And if I have to say goodbye to some things and/or make some sacrifices in order to heal myself, well…it’s gotta be done.