Good day everybody!
If you know me, you probably know by now that I am not having hernia surgery…I am having gastric bypass surgery.
Since January, I have been going through a process mandated by both The Bariatric Center of Kansas City and my insurance company: a 3-month diet, visits with a dietitian, visits with a psychologist, approvals for surgery from all my doctors, an endoscopy to make sure everything looks good down below and a 2 1/2-hour seminar going over pre- and post-surgery instructions.
This week, my insurance company gave final approval and the surgery date was set today: June 29th.
My feelings at this point are…fuck, can we get this over already?!
I’ve lost 25 pounds with the diet and I do feel better. I also feel like I have more willpower. But every time I eat is a struggle…it’s like my mind and stomach are screwing with me all the time. And there are so many things I can’t do or struggle with because of my weight. I think back to how things were when I was at my lowest weight in 1994 (when I lost 70 pounds)…and I want to be and feel like that again. (I can’t quite be like that again…I’m almost 40…I’m getting old!)
There are going to be some big changes coming. I won’t be able to eat solid food for like 2 months. I won’t be able to eat some things any more. I’ll be recovering all summer, including missing 2 weeks of work. But I want to live a long and healthy life…and at the rate I’m going, I fear being dead sooner rather than later.
I kept this surgery hidden for…2 months, I think? During that time, I wrote some blogposts about the surgery that I was going to release after the surgery. Well, since I let the cat out of the bag early…if you look back to January, you will see some posts that you might not have seen before. I’ll try to label them accordingly.
So…53 days away…